Smile with me

it has been a long week

2006-05-07T00:07:17Z

oh well this week finally ended and it has been a long week too. i put in 82 hours in work from sunday to friday alone. no one to work and people were on vacation and going to weddings and doing things i never get to do but they were having fun. i made a good pay check but i think i have an opperators spread now lmao
well i am still thinking of meeting greg, wether i should or not because i get mixed signals from him all the time. i spoke to him last night and he said he would call me first , answer my call first before he would answer jesus if he called him.
ya know the more i think about that the not so happy i feel. i mean come on wouldn't you rather talk to any one but jesus on the phone. to speak to him would mean you are dead i think. so was he making fun of me again or was he being nice. i think i will bring that up tonight during our hour and a half or what ever time conversation. mmmmm
well any way we will see what happens maybe just stay cell phone mates, and nothing more. lol some people have soul mates i have a cell mate. not like a jail cell mate lol oh my god i am making myself laugh so much. i hope you are laughing tool i love feeling like this.
don't know if it over tired or being blonde or just being me, nope just being me . ea have this servay that calls every other line we have and it is do you believe an ara ferm should be alowed to purchase the ports along the gulf cost, second question is about the guy in florida being put to death and third , well ya don't don't get to hear the third question for some reason, and the guy just goes on and on with some stupid questions so some time if the phone is not busy i answer the questions. never switching my answers of course don't want to throw anything off.
well i think we will be looking for a new operator very soon. one of the operators is about to get fired or walk off the job. she has been not very good at all always late and not two or three min late but 25 or 30 min late and has been up to two hours late. falls asleep at the desk and is a worst speller then i am if that is possible lol.
well i have to go and see what kind of trouble i can get in to lol. love you all {hate lesbians} woops i didn't say that love you all

the co picnic

2006-05-01T01:55:20Z

well i went with annie to her company/jackson hewitt/ picnic. it was nice i had a couple of laughs and saw a few people i knew. i felt a little out o place but then i feel that way where ever i go lately. annie did her demo with the poi and she was awsome. people were commenting on how good she was, and how hard it was and how lovely and graceful annie looked.. i sat there like the proud mother i am. she made me very proud. i wish she had gotten some kind of an award for her hard work and efforts she puts into her job but as she said it was to recognize jackson h people and she is not a part of jh. still she answers the phones when they are busy and helps with other stuff there besides doing her own job. well i am about the give her her richous award.
for an outstanding job in ace/check-n-cash/ and jackson hewitt. always helping people in the office as well as people just walking in off the street. wether they speak english or not she gets her point across and helps them all with getting the correct paper work done. and also for being the best daughter a mother coud ask for, except for when she is pmsing. or having a bad day or just waking up, or tired, or some one is giving her a hard time. i want to present annie taylor with this award
you make me proud i love you i love you and keep up the good work and keep smiling.
i have a long week this wek, working 78 hours is going to prove to be interesting to say the least.in at 7 am and home by 10 at night. not doing it for the money but because i am the only one who will cover for every one who is taking vacations and justtaking time off because they want to.guess that mekes me stupid.but i don't care i can help my kids and put foodon the table and get a few new things for me if i want. sounds good to me ha??
okay here is something to think about, i have been talking to a guy on the phone i have know for almost two years now, yes we have been friends for that long. when Harold was alive we use to talk and he and Harold would enjoy talking to each other.Now Harold has been gone for a year thi month, May 18. and ia am still talking to greg.we laugh and just talk about some of the dumbest things and we even watch tv over the phone and comment about the programs we watch. some people have soul mates i have a cell mate lol. good thing in isn't a jail cell mate. lmao well it has been sigested i arrainge to meet him for dinner or coffee some time soon. i am okay with that until i start to think about it and then i get all nervous like right now and start itching, hitting too many keys and havint to back up to rewrite words. and i say no not this girl i dn't want to meet him. i think iam afraid if i do meet him he will never call me or talk to me again. lets face it gang, looks passed me by and went to my kids, i am old and quite fat i must say. lets face it my voice is the only thing that could even attract anything. so here it is and i am not looking for complements just cold hard facts. what would you do keep it like it is or meet him???? all comments will be appreciated but try to be nice about it. lolmy nerve are bad enough don't want to send me over the deep end now lol or do you? well we know 2 people that ain't going to make comments lol. just remember i love you all no matter what come on i can take it dish it out.
look every one one more hour left and i can go home after my first 15 hour shift i am so excited. then i getto go home and sleep and get up 5 :30 to be into work at 7 and work until 4 pm. short day tomorrow. i am sleepy enough i might sleep threw the night i hope if teddy doesn't decide he has to go to the bathroom at 2 am again or my tooth doesn't start hurting, or my hip hurts me . it has been bothering me a lot lately but refusing to talk about it helps. i kep my mind off it. the rain or i should say dampness bothered me last night a lot.
up date on entergy news. there is a trailor park in gentili that has been without electric all day, lots of limbscame down last night due to the wind and rain. this was just a passing storm. got help us when that first tropical storm come in or a huricane comes this way. no wonder every one is such a wreck and nervous. it is not good.
well good night every one love you can't wait to hear nay comments from any one.

time to say hello

2006-04-16T22:04:51Z

Well here it is Easter sunday and i am naturally here at work. not much going on a very quiet day and very pleasant one at that. i got to listen to music and play all day on the puter. very few calls and the other girl went home at noon time so of course i had to say my complete shift 7a to 5p. long day but with friends on the phone i have a few laughs
my birthday was wonderful starting with my annie and nasser giving me some beautiful towels that i have been wanting, then going to dinner at kookoo's mexican resteraunt and getting a little tipsy. not too much and a surprise of a cake there. it was so much fun and i was surprised. then my friend called who i thought had forgotten about me but he has not and he has been calling me a lot lately. maybe he is something to get interested in maybe not. i am afraid of meeting him.i have only been talking to him for about two years on the phone off and on. joking and laughing. we have gone up to 4 hours talking on the phone. he is quite the sweet guy and funny. makes me laugh a lot. he says i make him laugh too. cause my life is so dramaticly funny. he wants to write a book and call it dottie fell out of a coocoo's nest on her head. lol i think it fits. everytime i think of meeting him in person i get happy until i think about it and then i start to get nervous and start itching. like right now just thinking of meeting him makes me nervous and i begin thinking, if he meets me he will never talk to me again, i am so ugly and i am not anything anyone would want to be seen with. then i feel better and go on. i want to meet him but never will because i am too afraid to. i am not good at meeting men. i feel ugly looking and old and fat. i have nothing to offer as it has been proven in other relationships.
i always screw them up. so all in all i am doing okay. so every one have a happy easter what is left of it and please respond to me and say hi or something someone i know annie will love you all and i can now say that because all the bad blood is gone from my list. only friends are here. no mean and ugly people allowed any more. love you all bye

sure takes me a while to say anything ha?

2006-04-09T02:53:49Z

i have had the best birthday i can remember , on april 5 or 6 well just after midnight i went to bed after annie gave me the most beautiful present. my OWN TOWELS, YELLOW TOWELS, NO ONE CAN TOUCH, 2 birthday cards from her and nasser. i was so surprised got up thursday mronign and got kisses from my kids and every one i got the day off from work and everything. had to go to the dr's for my shots and stuff but i didn't care. any way eric, asked to take me out to dinner and mike and kat and annie and nasser and rj all went and we had such a great time an at the end of the meal they brought out a birthday cake to me. i was so surprised. and loved every moment. but it has not stopped yet i got home and i slept really well after having a couple of drinks at dinner. friday i got a birthday card from a friend . i will finish this sunday i hope love you all and thanks for the great dayl

dumb shits in the world

2006-03-05T18:24:21Z

i am surprised to see me back on line today hahaha. i want to attack some of the dumb shits of the world. the zink is not in the kitchen , your sink is. you don't look in a mirror to jesture to yourself. and you do not give step by step directions to some one on a computer who can not read. now look who is stupid. and oh ya i am glad you know how to read the dictionary. it shows some intelligence on your part not much but it shows a little bit of what should i call it interest. as far as the boo hoo crying of what happened i will say scott should have kept his word and not have partied as much as he did. they kicked him out and made him drive under those conditions because he insulted michael. get the story straight. oh ya hay you were not there so you only hear one side. or better yet it is non or your business. what happened. and as far as annie goes. let me see who is useless here? she has a job, a manager of a business nation wide in that a fact, makes good money, and pays her own bills, has a wonderful home that she helps pay the bills and has a significant other who has never tried to kill a member of her family with poison. . she has never embarrassed her parents by running off or trying to kill herself just for the attention. and most of all she helps take care of me her mother who has a visual problem. and is very stubborn and thinks sometimes she is invincable. and proves i am not. there is no compairing you to her in any way. not at all so get off your high horse leave her alone and come after me if you wish cause i will blow you right out of the water little girl. and you will not like what i say. you do have more then one dirty little secret i know about. bring it on or you take me off your friends list. i can't be bothered with following what you tell me could be the right way. for all i know you could be infecting my computer with some kind of virus or something. i can admit i am not too smort on the computer but them again i am not that interested in it.
and oh ya the mirror thing it doesn't work. lmfao

same as always nothing

2006-03-04T22:11:49Z

it was good to see oe and jim and chris and every one on mardi gras day and before. made me really happy to see every one having a good time this year with no fighting. but i must point out again one person had to make things a little bad for every one else and notice who it was. no more said about that.
i have taken all my meds and have finally gotten back to work and am sitting in a comfortable chair so that my hip does not hurt too much. i am nota very happy person with all the drama going on around me and expecially not having my car working any more. i am back to depending on annie again and that is killing me. she yells and gets so mad if i ask her for a ride or if she will pick me up from work. she works so hard and is tired. at the end of the day. i hate to bother her.
i have been thinking of a new life for myself. i am thinking i should ask the kids to move out on their own. all of them and go live on my own. in a place with one bedroom. i could take care of myself. and do what i have to do. sell the car for junk. and just go. find a new job and live alone. no one wants me around unless i can pay for dinner, or buy them something or give them something. no one want to spend time with me any more. it is all about every one else. everytime i get something it comes up missing, gets broken, or just comes up missing. my tv, my new pots pans silver wear and dishes i got for christmas. even something stupit like my deoderant is missing, thank god for back up. and then some times my back up comes up missing. i own nothing because when i do it gets distroied. i don't mean to sound like i am feeling sorry for myself cause i am not i just would like a little bit of respect from people. just seems like i am always there for them and i need to beg for some one to be there for me. a little strange i would say.
enought pitty party thanks for listening or reading. and here is another thing i want to say , Amanda lee adcock, please do not answer any of my journal. stay out of my life as i have asked you and your thing to do before. you apparentally do not get a clue so i am now asking you in public to stay away do not comment do not attempt to contact me for any reason. thank you
okay now that i have all that shit off my chest i am going to tell a joke
two potatoes are on a street corner, one is a prostitute. how can you tell which one it is...................................................................................................keep reading................................................................................................comming soon......................................................................it is the one that says I-DA-HO hahahahaha just for you jim
cause i dont get to see you any more lmao

lots to catch up on

2006-02-19T17:23:12Z

lots of things have been happening lately almost all of the tests i have taken have come back so far negitive for cancer or anything life threatening. I am so glad. at least i am physically healthy in some degree. mentally is another question.??
running into problems with some people with their drama is another long term on going thing i have to learn how to deal with and try to hold my tongue, and that is getting hard to do these days espially when i made myself a resolution to speak out when people try to shit on me as they have in the past. take advantage of my kindness and giving ways then run all over me .
i miss the old gang coming to the house just to hang out and laugh. Joe chrys, jim, even rebekkah and who ever she had with her that night haha
scott and his cute laugh and always so happy. all so young and yet i look at them as they are my friends too. they are but not of my age group. there has never been anyone my age we did have some good times and some sad times but mostly fun and a lot of laughs. like the night joe got pantsed right infront of me. people laughed so hard over that. i think it was joe?? some one did and i was sitting on the floor right in front of him.
the house is now the house is empty and being worked on. new walls no furniture. nothing to sit on and have a soda to watch tv with. i stay in my bedroom away from every one as we all do. no more laughter, all very quiet no company, and no sound but teddy snoring on the bottom of the bed and can that dog snore. yup katrina changed my life from one extreme to another.
i think about how joe and chrys and the kids are, if scott is behaving , did jim pass another test and when can he start anolysing these stupid thoughts and dreams i have hahaha. even the couple of times janice and lee dropped in to say hi was always a happy time. i keep thinking soon everything will go back to normal and every one will come back to visit again. every one who is welcomed. this time i am going to have a say so in who and what happens in my house. it may not mean anything but i am going to have a say about who is in the house.
well guess i have to get back to work. lines are rolling and lighting up like crazy with wining people about their heat not working and pipes are leaking. trees fallen in their back yard and boats needing to be docked. spills to be mopped up and fruit cakes need to talk to their shrinks. all and all it is busy so i will end this with one thought. ..................................................................................................., think about it!

me and teddy bear

2006-01-29T21:50:39Z

i have a special someone to talk about. he has the floppiest ears and such a cute face, his eyes light up when he sees me come home at night or just wake up in the morning. he thinks i do it all for him. his little half tail just waggs so fast when i speak to him. poor thing had it cut off when he was just a pup, bless his little hart.he tells me when he is not feeling well, when he is hungry, when he has to go to the bathroom. he sleeps next to me at night and is there when i wake up with a nightmare. licks my hand to comfort me. never talks back or says a mean thing to me . my teddy is always there when i feel the lneliest in my life. he is my up my down my pride and joy as the song goes. He is simply a sweet little doll who brings me comfort and happiness when i most need it.
i was explaining to my daughter the other night about how wonderful things are right now and how every one is so happy and finally things are how everything is coming together for all of us now that all the bad apples are gone out of our lives and we have joy in our lives. i guess for those of you who are too young a bad apple is some one who goes rotten and has a miserable life and wants to bring bad things to others who are close to them wether family or friends. they don't care as long as they are miserable with them they are happy it is a psychological thing chemical imbalance. not saying those of you need to try to take andy of those wacky chemicals to be inbalanced it is a natural thing as some of you know.
have a question for anyone who might be interested? any one , come on now you don't have to raise your hands i know some of you out there know the answer or think they might know the answer. here it is if a salmon swims up stream, a tuna swims down stream and cod macrel and others swim level why is the water different colors during the day.? not all at onec please take your time and think about it before answering please i am testing you all and there will a\be a quiz later.
so lets recap, teddy is a great dog. my life is at this time wonderful, and we are worried about the color of water in different areas? go figure old people are crazy, aren't we??
well enough for today word up peace out and rock on with your bad selves
and oh yes ugly need not answer or reply. love to you all who are loved by me. MA

don't understand this one at all

2006-01-15T01:26:36Z

usually i don't have much to talk about just what ever comes up in this head of mine but tonight people i want to share something with you that i do not understand.
okay so i go to walgreens last night to pick up some meds and get something to drink and i am standing in line at the check out counter there in front of me is a cd. a movie called *Huricane Katrina and what it did*. I could not hold back is said out loud. who in the hell put this thing out on the mroket. Of all the nerve, make a movie of the huricand. we live in the devestation why do we want to look at on out tv's again? and for 15.99 you have three hours of people loosing everything they ever worked for. Who in the hell want to buy a movie like that. I mean come on something should be done about it . We live in a messed up situation where every one in the state and ms. and some of tx and al lost everything, some lost family, and some lost friends wether directly during the huricane or indirectly by working during the rocovery and search and cleanup . although it does not look like much is being done with the cleanup of the town. trees are still so sadly laying on their sides, so gray and lifeless, some just half fallen over in a broken stage with the trunk laying amoungst others piled on top of each other like old friends holding on to thos who have fallen dead in their arms.
as i rid down the highway, 190 to work almost every day i look and some of the trees in tangles and twisted as if some one went in tieh a large fist and decided just to knock them over like dominos. i look at them and think i use to pass them and think how beautiful they wer full of greena dn shady. walking out side my house use to have shade and trees every where, now it is just open sky and some of the tall trees that did not fall are standing alone looking like they are forgotten about. Only those who fell on houses or near the house were removed and cut up and taken away to land fills but the ones in clusters not near housese still lay on their sides stripped of their leafs and life. it is sad, very sad to look at.
and then some jerk comes along wanting to make a few bucks off of us by putting it on film and selling it and at walgreens of all the places in the world. How dear they, walgreens of all the places in the community to even think os selling such a tfilm to us the public. first after the storm, they made you stand in line to get a number to get in line to get another number to get a prescription filled, then told you it could be a week to 10 days before they would have it ready. a month or two later they are still closing at 6 pm and still making you wait for medicine a few days and their photo lab, ya know the one hour photo lab will not have your film ready for a week. so your insurance adjuster has to wait that extra week. oh yes a fine how do you do from a large company that so many people have to go to for meds to live. Now you go in there and if you are lucky they might give you the correct meds and still make you wait sometime hours for a prescription to be filled. the photo lab is just backed up days instad of a week and the employees are the rudest i have ever seen in all of my life not a smile or a thank you from any one of them i say if they continue selling this cd we should boy cot walgreens and go to rite aide or cvs. and if they are selling the cd do the same thin.
If you want to make money off of katrina, call fema or come here and help us clean up after the damn thing it is four months later and every one is talking about it on the tv, on the radio, but i see nothing being done to improve anything. trafic is terrible, taking anywhere from 45 minutes to an hour and half to drive a 10 minute drive down gause, or for that matter getting any where in this city. why is there so much traffic during the day? because all of the slackers and all of the people who are hiring ilegal mexicans are driving around around looking for something to do while they have these mexicans working doing hard labor for cheep rates. while they make big bucks off of us who happen to be wanting to get our houses back to some what normal. then we have some of the mexicans who are just here doing nothing robbing some of the houses that are not lived in and some just slacking doing nothing waiting for someone to pick them up to do a days work so they can go out and get drunk and urinate where they want or pass out where they may. i have heard it seen it and watched all of this happen so why shoudl i buy a cd with the desaster on it to remind me of the desaster i am living in??
this is my editorial take it or leave. i say boy cot the large co. around here and lets give the people of the city back the city.

at work again

2006-01-05T03:37:33Z

well here i am again at work as usual. not doing much of anything. just answering the phones and getting yelled at by stupid people who think it is my fault they are not getting service they were promissed or not getting a call back from people. but i do have my fun like just now i got to take a pizza order. they had the wrong number and i answered budget tree service, main word tree service, but they did not listen after i said it twice so i took their order for pizza and offered them free drinks and cheezy bread to go with it. now that brought a smile to my face. come on how many tree services can you call and get free cheezy bread and drinks from??
my children are wonderful just thoughti would tell the world.how very proud of them i am.they are the only family i have and they are the greatest of them all.
my christmas was wonderful thanks to annie getting all the decorations and the tree and the presents were wonderful so many for RJ and he had a blast. every one was smiling and taking pics. i loved it but i missed Harold. I mostly missed their father cause that was always our special day with the two kids. he called while we were opening up presents that made me miss him more. fool that i am.
well things are changing and i believe they will be better this year, better then ever before because i am going to make it that way for myself and for every one i love.
my new years resolutions is, trust no one for any reason unless the truth is directly infront of me. then if it is don't trust it until i check it out.and another resolution is to stay away from people who have hurt me in the past, stop being so forgiving to every one. I only get kicked in the ass when i forgive so much, so stay away from those who i do not trust and stick to it no matter who or what they might say. i would rather be alone then to be stepped on an hurt any more.
i plan to do fun things this year and get involved in something interesting or just have fun even if it is with a select few . i plan to work hard and smile a lot and not let any one know if i am feeling sad or depressed, it only brings others down and i want every one to be happy around me. i need laughter and the only way to get it is make people laugh.
now for a little with i have tucked back in my little brain. i would like to have all of the people who are my friends to all get together and help me celebrate my birthday this year. i want a real party with surpeises and maybe even a mail stripper hahaha, or take me to a strip club and lets all get happy. mail strippers pleas non or that bull crap, i hate that and you know it. okay but sorry i only know one gay person and he is so far very sweet, all the others have been ass holes and beyond. that is a new store, assholes and beyond run by gays lmfao sorry they have just given a bad rep for lying to me and i do not trust any one of them never again.predgest i know i am sorry but i have my feelings and no one can take that away from me, hell they impressed it on me.
well almost time for me to shut down and go home for the night. every one have a wonderful night. and dream a little dream for me.

2006 will be great for all

2006-01-01T06:58:34Z

i just want to wish every one a happy new year. for those of us hao have everything we want in life we will get nothing but joy from it. I have my two beautiful children and their two wonderful spouces. but most of all i ave my wonderful grandson god gave me ready and willing to give as much love to me as i have for him. I have my teddy bear, dog, the cats what ever their names are this week, and i have my job but most of all i have my life. thank you god for giving me every thing i could ever need right now. as you all get older you will find the smallest things will bring you the biggest joy in your lif. Enjoy every thing you have and all you get in life for it is a precious time we spend here on earth and it is sometimes so short of time here is to the next thirty years i have wondering why i have not found that special man yet lol. i love you all.
love ma ps joe and chrys, so glad you two are doing so well right now and i am sorry i missed seeing you but we will see you soon i promiss.

just a thought

2005-12-24T01:27:45Z

i am sitting here at work, where else? and i am thinking about every thing that is going on. how some poeple are so stupit and just can't leave things alone. life is too short why do you have to try to steal some one's lunch money every time ya turn around. some people are just born bullies. can't stop being so tough with their mouth. well it is christmas, those of us who believe in peace on earth would like those of you who can't get it threw their thick skull that man and woman can live in happiness together should just go away and stay there. leave the normal world alone you just don't fit.i am sick of people who don't know what they are talking about sticking their nose where it does not belong. fyi, my blindness was never and i repeat never a strain or bother to anyone. only to those who are ignorant. it was deffenately not a burdon to my finances because i was always able to take my children to what ever dr. they needed and pay for it not threw welfare but cash. my children wore name brand clothing not from k mart. and we always had food on the table. my husband and i worked hard to give both of my children what ever they needed and may i say wanted. i still work hard for what i have and i do not have much but i work for it unlike other people who go begging at the welfare ofc and try to scam as many people as they can. live free with a grand parent using her car and drive with several warrents looking for for her. you should have it half as good as my children growing up had. their father might have been a lot of things but he made sure we were were provided for and i did too. so hand out your crap about 'your mother and her blindness had financial problems.' to some one else and mandy you need to start writing about things you know about . woops wait no one would ever hear from you again. makes me smile just thinking of that .

people

2005-12-22T03:48:38Z

people should write what they know about at least a little bit and you know who i am directiing that at your comment was not even funny and how dear you make fun of a symbol of christmas. but then again i am not surprised you should make fun of any thing that means anything to any one. yes i am pissed off at you and yes i wish i knw how to get you off my friend's list so if possible take yourself off. i would just asume forget i ever knew you and that thing you live with. sorry but it is just the way i feel sorry but i just can't deal with your crap any more and i would just asume not have to . i am upset with you and do not care to contact you or have you contact me for any reason. it is for the best so that i do not say anything that will hurt people who i care about. and oh by the way at least nasser worked and payed his own way never getting fired from a job because he was a freak of nature if you know what i mean.

it is questionable

2005-12-22T03:30:08Z

i just typed out 62 lines of me getting pissed off at the world and realized why the hell should i make you all read something that you will not under stand you are not even here to understand what i am talking about . so here is something you will understand

put a smile on your face things will have to be okay one way or another.

hi every one

2005-12-18T02:56:40Z

well here i am tonight where i am always at. i am finally going to get a day off on monday to which i am very happy about if you can call it a day off. i have to do more christmas shopping i sure with this was over with. i hate the fact i have no one special to give anything to like i did last year. i sure am missing Harold right noweven though i am feeling extremely mad at him and i have no reason to be mad poor thing is dead and all. well enough of that. sounds like an hour therophy session is needed there lol. well i ma worried about joe, how is he doing and is he any better?? chris are you doing okay with all you are having to handle?? and every one else i asume is okay in their little spots in life?? well that is all good.
my friend and i made up the twelve days of christmas post katrina and we typed it all out. i am giving it to annie and she will post it later for me so every one can enjoy it. i like it. i just helped an old lady out who has called me about four times thinking i was the ta truck stop. ifinally got tired of her calling and looked it up in the phone book for her and told her how to call it and even went and checked the number to make sure it was right. at the end of the conversation she said,'god bless you darling my son is there and is waiting for money to come home from there for christmas. he has been away for so long i am sending him money. i thoughtat first it was a bother but now i really feel good about helping her and all i almost cried another call just came in and it was a grandmother calling because her son in law dropped off her twin grandchildren and as a passing thought said, oh by the way he has mono. not contagous so no need to worrie." mother is pregnant and god knows what else is going on in the house. again i had to help her out and get the on call nurse even though it is not an er and i could tell her to wait until monday and call the ofc. poor lady is beside herself. i heat the sadness some people call me with. i need something funny to happen really soon. send me your favorate funny story or something i promiss you i will laugh if it is funny. i think i am going to make a joke book. get a book and just start entering some of the funniest jokes i have heardand just write them down. any thing to entertain myself well i have to get ready to go home in an hour.thank god 13 hours in the same place i am tired. and i have to do another 10 hours tomorrow morning. god help us all. every one have a great night and may the power be with you all so youwill not need exlax lmfao love ya

well here we go again

2005-12-17T02:13:25Z

well here it is friday night. i am at work as usual and will be here until 10 as usual. don't get to go out any more or do anything with anyone cause i am too busy working. yes i supose it is my own fault but they need the help and i can use the money as every one can. all the bills are getting paid and things are going along as usual. drama stress and post katrina it is life lol.
we had to put max down yesterday and well it hurt. i know he was getting mean and all and but i loved that stupid dog as i do all animals. he did scare me cause at the end i never knew if he was going to try to attack me or what. i hated the fact he hurt annie and rj. and so many times i wanted to take him out myself and just shoot him.bu when he got in that truck and they put him in the cage and he turned his back and would not look at me i was glad because i would have changed my mind if i had looked into those eyes of his. i just pray that teddy remains okay. ya just don't mess with him nad his food. if he has something to eat leave him alone or get the spray bottle.
well i need some advise, if any one can give it to me a friend of mine has know this guy for about 2 years. they talk on the phone all the time and have been know to talk up to 4 hours at a time just laughing and talking. she says he makes her smile and feel good about herself and he is always laughing with her. she asked me if this is a good relationship or should she meet him for the first time. what do you all think?? i think she should leave things alone just the way they are.
pressing on, i am working christmas eve, alone, the girl who works with me is taking that day off for christmas i think if i have to do the work f 2 people on christmas eve i should get double time on christmas eve. my boss don't see it that way. why does she get to go away for another holiday and i have not had one in four years?? think i'tll go outside in the rain and get silly splashing in the water. love you all and hay if any one has any ideas pls comment back

omg

2005-12-15T07:40:53Z

it looks like the bear is humping the clock do you see tht??

so here we go again

2005-12-15T07:38:24Z

oh me oh my, here i sit broken harted htought i shit and only farted.
another quote from my brain inc.
i am sitting here at work doing another over night as i do so many unexpected times an my boss informed me today that it was me who was the one that kept this place alive nad running for the past three months after katrina hit. he told me if i had not come in so much and did the job of two and some times three people this place would have had to close. that is from the big boss. WOW. the words are nice but they mean little to me. i am here because i like it and the eople i talk to are some times very strange. like right now some one has an er toilet stoppage at 1 am they want a plumber to come out and unstop a toilet. i think think that is crazy. or the lady that called and said, 'my zink is clogged and the water keeps leaking out of my dishwasher when i turn it on. any one with a half of a brain would not attempt to turn the dish washer on if the sink is clogged up. i would think. or 'ya bro ain't got no air in my crib'. well get out of the plastic bubble open a window and breath mo fo breath. just my thought.
now let me see i have to do something to stay awake, i have read all of the journal, and some i really care about some id did care about. play some pogo .ot com. toumble bees is my favorate, ate a little cause my stomach i bothering me, and how i have nothing to do. the trash was done and dusting is finished, vaccume will happen around three cause by then i will be ready to clumb the walls. have talked to greg four times tonight. he is a man i have been talking to for a while on the phone even when harold was alive. he gives me tours around n.o. over the phone. he is very funny but i dont want to meet him. i like our relationship. phone pals. we have been known to talk up to four hours at a time about nothing and about every thing. he is going to help me write my book he said and call it, well never mind i don't want to say just incase it becomes real and a best seller. don't want any one to steal my ideas. lol,. he is niceand makes me laugh and that is hat counts. think i'll go outside for a while, and just smile, take in some clean fresh air. another couple of lines from a song can you guess which one??here are some lines from some songs can you get any one of them?? let me see how old your soul is.
i think i'll go out side for a while and just smile, take in some clean fresh air.
another song
2. we have a thing, goin on, and we both know thats its wron but its much too strong to let it go now
next song
3. i got married to the widow next door she's been married seven times before.
nex song
4. oooo eeee oooo ah ah ping pang walla walla bing bang oo ee ooo ah ah ping pang walla walla bang bang
nest
number 5
you've been messen where you should've have been messen, and what you know you ain't have had time to learn. i just found me a brand new box of matchest.
see how many you can get scroll down for the names of the songs

xxxx not yet

xxxx keep going

xxxx your almost there

xxxx did you get any right at all??

1, its a beautiful morning
2. me and mrs jones
3. i'm henry the 8th i am
4. i told the which dr.
5. these boots are madefor walkin

so now did you have fun doing that just a little thing in case you are as fucking bored as i am and trying to stay awake like i am right now
enjoy music it is life with a tone.

things look better

2005-12-15T01:50:19Z

well good news if any can come i have a blood blister on my liver not a tuma. so i am okay just uncomfortable and will be that way for a litle while but i am okay thanks to those who thought of me. and to those who did not care hay this old lady is back stronger then ever so there. see ya can't take a taylor down no matter what we smile at what others cry over and say bring it on take what ever ya hand us nad bounce back stronger every time.

thinking of nothing

2005-12-11T00:33:54Z

thought i would do a little more of what i do best here think of nothing. it seams like our african american friends have found something else to be pissed about i have heard a black congresswoman by the name of sheila jackson lee democrat reputedly complained that the names of the huricanes are too 'lilly white'
she would prefer some of the names to reflect african american culturesuch as chaniqua, woeisha, taniqua or jamal. can you picture this black weather men in houston with the following
'wourd up muthas, hehr-i-cane chamiqua be headin fo galviston like leroy on a crotch rocket. Bitch be a catagory fo, so turn off them chitlinsgrab yo chirrenand leave ya yo crib. head fo higha land, welfare will be giving out da free shit right after da bitch is gone.
so this is what i do sit here and think of this stuff some time i get a call and get to hang up on people or tell them they only think they have an emergancy. not according to their appt complex they dong't lmao
an old man goes into a bar he is celebrating his 90th birthday, the bar tender knowing him for over 30 years a a faithful customer gives him a present of a young firl who suddenly pops out of a cake and yells surprise honey, i can give you super sex'. so the old man looks at her and says, 'well i guess i will have the soup then.'

it is really me

2005-12-10T00:49:26Z

contrary to popular beliefs it is me ma, no one else could thin or say the things i do not even annie or mike. i don't know any other way to prove it is it me but to ask you to take my word for it. Had the test today and they found what they were looking for. now i have to wait for the dr. to call me or see me next wednesday to tell me what they are going to do with what they found. so more waiting and nerves are jittering with every passing moment, for me any way. i almost made it threw the year with out going into the hospitalwith any luck i may not have to go in the hospital.
well thanks to all of you for reading my journal and replying to me i am going home now so i will be writing tomorrwo love you all and here is looking back at all of you

my favorate words from a song

2005-12-09T09:41:28Z

in a little while from now
i'm not feelin any less sound
i promiss myself to treat myself to visit a near by tower
climbing to the top
will throw myself off
in an attitude, being clear to who
never wonders like when your shattered
leaving in the lerarch , at a church where people praying
my god thats tough she stood him up , no point in us remaining
might as well go home as i did on my own
alone again naturally

it is an old song such as i am but the words are so meaningful when you are at that point in your mind where you think you are the only one in the world that hears your voice. and at that time it is a sad voice that makes you want to cry even harder then those tears that are falling now.
but on a lighter note there are no tears here for i am dorothy who shall click her heals three times and say "there is no place like home, there is no place like home'. and the house will fall on the which and all the little munchkins will come out dressed in the same frocks they have been in for the past several decades, and ya know they got to be ripe by now
and sing me in to the land of oz. what a sight they all will be too the lollypop guild, on cruches, walkers and pace makers forall three of them. just trying to remember the words, the little balareenas not quite able to get up on their toes any more from the many broken bones from ostio perosis, and triping over their shalls that they wear cause the old bastard wizard will not turn the heat on, toomany hot flashed going on there, and the good old yellow brick road, faded and cracked like the good which glenda of the north, twisted and confused as she is forgets not only how to pop that bubble to apear but is running around in depends and a night gown that is opened in the back for all the munchkins to see just how many times some one stuck that wond up her ass.

why me why my family why now??

2005-12-09T05:40:04Z

why me?? that is the first question? i have been nothing but good to all of those who both of my children know from some of the freakest out o this world to some of the smartest people i could ever meet.I opened my home my heart and my life to each and every one of your treating you as much like a part o my family as is you were blood.yes we have all had our moments and how many time i have asked for forgiveness as well as given. and yet my life seems to be the one every one wants to take down.
why my family?that is the second question?? my daughter future son in law, son and wife-future daughter in law and the most beautiful grand son a person could have. they all reach out to others are there to have fun, always there in a crisis to help every one, step in give a place to stay and talk things out. we are good people and if anythingi have always taught both of my kids forgive and forget. for what you give will always come back to you no matter what it is.
now for the question i wonder the most why now. not only am i facing the troubles of loosing my children to some evel doings of some one who just wants to be an asshole but look Harold died, may 18th , Katrina hits and well we all know what she did. takes all o my belongings items that yes can be replaced unlike harold who i could never leave behing during the storm. now i have a tuma on my liver. they don't know if it is cancer or not and i am going for an mri in the morning to find out what they are planning to do with me.i have been telling them i am in pain constantly and all they want to do is put me on thi pill and that pill an i never took them because i knew i just knew this was not the kinda pain you could get rid of with an anti biodic or a apin killer. cover up but no get rid of.
what i am saying is you are not hurting just one person when you reach out to be mean but you hurt a group of people and as the problems get bigger, it reaches more people.i suspect who ever has tried to hurt my kids is happy right now. but as i sit here before you typing this as if anyone will ever read it. if anyone in my family is hurt any more by your selfish pleasures of evil wershiping. i will face god and ask him to see you live the rest of your days in hell and beyond. every time youthink things are going so good you willget the kick in the face as i have and my friend it is not a good feeling to be kicked in the face your hole life.
as much as i have hated in my life from the gays that have lied to me to the blacks that have robbed from me, from the jews who have treated me like i was some kind of an idiot, to the strange white man who raped me and tried to kill me. i will find out who your are and you will be the last person i will hate in my life and you will live the misory that i have over come.
now for some better lighter news, to you who mean so much to me and you know who you are even if you are not religious because i surely am not say a prayer for me or ask what ever your spiritual guider to help us all get threw another kick in the ass i love you and good nite

just a quick hello until later

2005-12-09T02:06:10Z

hell every one,
this is my first of many many words to any one who wants to listen to me. or hear from me i have very little to say right now because i am geting ready to go some where but i will be back later to answer any questions or just to say hi to those who read this and respond to me remember you can prick your finger but never finger your prick.

Hello!

2005-06-19T06:21:54Z

This is my first entery. Annie showed me how so you guys can talk to me about anything you want and we can either laugh or cry together.

i love you all!

Ma